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'SUP TUBERS and welcome back to another video on the ButtaTime channel!
This video is a little different from my usual content because it's a bit more personal. I went through a lot of ups and downs during my college application and admission process and honestly, it was hard. A lot of tears were shed and nights were spent without much sleep. I feel like I wasted a lot of time and effort on things that only resulted in disappointment. This may sound melodramatic but it's true: both my body and mind have endured some intense trauma since September and I am still trying to recover.

Moving on from the negatives, however, I find that I'm okay with how everything turned out. Admissions were difficult this year (so I'm told) and I've honestly done all I could at this point. I'm excited about what the future holds and I think I'll discover happiness wherever I go.

If you relate to my struggles, I'm sorry. But, hey, I'm here for you. Parasocially, of course. If you can't relate because you're wicked smart and got accepted into every college, GOOD FOR YOU! SORRY, WE CAN'T ALL BE PERFECT!!!! If you can't relate because you haven't applied to any colleges yet and are just watching this video in preparation for your journey, good luck. Seriously. Good luck. This stuff sucks.

note to current subscribers: sorry I've been a little shady on the uploads lately, I've been focusing on quality rather than quantity and the videos I've been editing have required mass amounts of effort. Thanks for sticking around though. love ya.

STATS:
SAT 1390 (1400 superscore)
GPA 4.275 (at midyear)
College Credits 24 (dualenrollment bc we don't have AP or IB)
Rank 6/61 (I HAVE A COMPETITIVE CLASS DONT JUDGE ME)
Activities: varsity volleyball, basketball, and cross country, National Honor Society, senior mentor, theater, choir, + more that I can't think of atm
other info: i live in a very small town and am poor. also i want to major in english creative writing or journalism and mass communications

colleges i applied to: Carthage College, University of Iowa, SIU Carbondale, Iowa State, UC Berkeley, UC Davis, UC Santa Barbara, UCLA, Claremont McKenna College, Scripps College, Pomona College, USC, Stanford, Northwestern University, Yale, Columbia University, Princeton University, Oberlin College, University of Notre Dame, the University of Washington at St. Louis, Brown University, Grinnell College, Emory College, and Hamilton College.

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I’m a retired underground fighter who is trying to turn over a new leaf by starting a YouTube channel and begrudgingly continuing my education as a senior in high school. I’m 5’6 and a half and will fight someone if it will get me views even though I promised my baby mama that I was done. When I’m not crushing grown men’s skulls with a single bicep curl, I enjoy reading, writing, drawing, and listening to classical music. I’m 18 and have six kids. Don’t judge what you’ll never understand. Peace ☮

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