This weekend, I was writing about 'how to deal with loneliness', but that topic came up after I thought about what it means to discover one's purpose, and whether that's a good thing. It has been a challenge coping with loneliness of pursuing my Godgiven purpose. I've questioned if I'm actually following my purpose or accepting the universe. Accepting the Universe and it's demands is often times at odds of what it is that God wants for you.

But this is your life. I was talking last week about how sometimes I search too often for videos and podcasts. I used to spend too much time listening to Joe Rogan, or Jordan Peterson. You can't live vicariously through content or any sort of media. It's important simply be alone with your thoughts. The more time you spend alone, and in silence, the more you come to know yourself.

I want peace. I want to live slow. Slow living leads to living full. I don't want to be in a state of negative emotion and wish away any aspect of my life. I don't want to be alone, but sometimes spending time alone is necessary.

Rarely are the times in my life that I've felt fully understood. When I've ask 'why am I lonely', I've found that the answer isn't to surround myself with more people, but to confront that feeling and discern whether not the person I'm revealing to the world has anything to do with my true self. Loneliness is hard, and being in a state of feeling alone is not good for your emotional well being, but there has to be an actual solution. For me, I've found that the solution is to be more authentic, and more genuine to who I truly am. To be vulnerable with people and do my best to be my true self to let others see who I really am without fear of being judged. If you're afraid of judgement, and unwilling to reveal to others your true self, there'd be no way to not constantly feel alone.

I'm working on writing stories right now. I was going to read one of my stories in this episode, but it's not quite there yet, and i'm trying to elevate the quality of my stories.

Enjoy and let me know your thoughts

00:00 Introduction
01:00 What is loneliness?
5:50 The Story I'm currently writing
10:35 When you feel alone, while with people, where are you?
12:18 Why do I fear being alone?
15:12 The purpose of the hero's journey
19:30 Why do we need faith?
21:57 How being alone brought me closer to God