Katekyo Hitman Reborn Tsuna's Awakening Violin Cover

I haven't been posting cause things haven't been sounding good to me as of recent, but I found three songs I would like to cover that I can work on for this month.

I was going to do another piano cover, but after 3 days of practicing, turns out I need 88 keys and my keyboard is only 61... now I'm thinking of buying a full keyboard...

Also, everyone around me is depressed and sad again, so I picked another hyppee motivational song. Please enjoy and thanks for watching ヽ(*・ω・).


Life's Journey
In my senior year of high school, I kind of had this wake up moment. I started questioning everything I was doing and found that I really had no reason to do what I was doing other than the fact that I was listening to those around me and trying to meet their expectations.

What were my own expectations of myself? What did I actually want? I had never even thought about what I liked or what was I good at. I thought I knew all the answers, but they were really just other people's thoughts and opinions that I had come to believe were my own.

It was around the same time that I had a appointment with my high school counsellor as they were meeting up with all of the seniors to discuss their future plans.

I told the counsellor about my predicament and she told me that it was okay to not have everything figured out even after graduating high school. And later on, another counsellor had told me that I was going through an identity crisis which is normal.

So since then, I've kind of been on a conscious journey of self discovery, learning new things about myself and trying to find out what I want to do with my life.

Two important people come into mind when I ask myself what is it that I want to be doing.

One good friend of mine that I have known for years has built up a good career with good growth, making a lot of money, going on vacations, having a nice car, and living with who they call someone that they want to marry. It's strange to say, but when I ask them how they are doing, they tell me that they wished that they had followed their dream instead and everything that they have built up is not truly what they want. And whenever I bring up the topic now and then, I can see that it eats away at them.

One other person that has impacted my life has told me that they had no idea what they wanted to do with their life and decided to ignore the thought and picked a safe path with the advice of others rather than asking themselves the question of what do they want because it made them go crazy and miserable thinking about it. But after ignoring their own inner voice for years, they realized that in doing so, it made them just as depressed.

And from what I have gathered from other people in my life of course everyone has their own circumstances, but the most common denominator for the reason why the people around me feel "depressed" is because where they are, or what they have is not actually what they want.

For the past 5ish years (I'm 22 now), I kind of just been trying things out and gaining new experiences (and answering so many questions that I will not have a chance to go over), to find out what is it that I actually want and would like to do. And after all that searching, I think I have finally found something that I would like to pursue full heartedly. But... if I turn out to be wrong, I learned that that is okay too, I just need to continue gaining new experiences and trying and discovering new things.

...it does continue to get demoralizing after doing this for so long... ( ´ ▿ ` ). But that is what friends are for! (/^^(^ ^*)/ ♡



Favorite quotes:

"Don't pick a path out of fear disguised as practicality" Jim Carrey

“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. Steve Jobs

“The only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work, and the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking, and don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. Steve Jobs