It's okay. I've been there and so have millions of others. You're not alone in this.
You just want the pain to stop which is why you sleep your days away. What's the point in doing something anyway if you're useless right? You believe you're weak because you cry a lot or maybe you don't even cry anymore because all you feel is numb. Like you're sitting on a train and the world just passes you by.
Maybe you'd even go as far and say that you hate yourself because you heard all these negative things about you from people around you.
But here's the thing: You are not that!
Those words were never your own, until you made them yours. And just because you're not good at certain things or maybe even failed once or twice, does not mean that you are a failure. Crying does not make you weak, it simply means you've been strong for so long. And you're tired all the time because you keep running away from yourself. You're scared to face yourself but that's exactly what you need to do to heal this pain. Depression is not a war against yourself. Realize that you are your own best friend. What really wants your attention is that inner child that's been hurt in the past, and it wants you to be there for it. Let it know that it's okay. I'm sorry for what happened to you, but you and I we can't go back and change it, but you got everything inside of you to create a better future for yourself. Take off that heavy mask and stop portraying somebody you are not.
You are here for a reason, you may not know that reason now but you will figure it out eventually. You have your place in the world and you will find it. Maybe you've been broken a couple times but it's meant to shape you into who you're supposed to be. Those people were never your people but the right one's are waiting for you and they don't want anybody else. Your numbness will fade away and you will feel again and this time all the beautiful things life has to offer. And you will cry but this time it will be happy tears. And you will look back at this time of your life and laugh in gratitude because this is what made you.
You are lovable, you are wonderful, you are strong and you are capable of doing this. You are wanted and you have a purpose here.
It can't rain forever.
This may not be what you want, but it might just be what you need to grow.
So please, don't give up.
I believe in you.
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